It is no one’s fault but my own
For I could not cope anymore
I’d sit for hours contemplating my death
Just never thought I would be on my bed
I could not do anything but let everything go
In spite of letting everyone know
- Afraid of letting you down
And don’t sit there with those fake frowns
Those phony crowns that make no sound
It was the way I was told
To help but only ask when the time is needed
Well I can’t be included, now could i?
My legs are shaking, my eyes are burning
I am so afraid yet so intrigued
By the fact that I won’t return anymore
I am but glad as no one cared for me anymore
I’m glad to have met those of whom I did
Yes I’m an asshole but what I did
Was so I could see what you truly were
A person who would not deceive me in any plot
A person who would come with me just to drink a tot
To laugh and shout and rant about, careless of the world
- Yet it changed near the end
For I was but anything neglected and used
Shut out of conversations occurring like I always would
Yet when the occasion arrives, they’d wonder why I’d not have known
- It saddens me
But what I saw what I did, was shut out the world
For you did not care any less, as you try to be the best
I cared not of fame and fortune
But wealth in love and happiness
That of which would surely never cross my fortune
I sit here crying as my pulse keeps slowing
The dizziness in my mind, is but boring
I feel cold and restless
For I know time is but senseless
I hate this place as feelings are mutual
For that I will no longer be a beneficiary to useless users
As my time approaches
- And I am never to return
There are a thousand more things I’d like to say
But my time is a bit short today
Enjoy your lives and ponder not of mine
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